WUW: I’m back … again!

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wuw fallWHAT I’M READING

I am in the middle of the delightful and delightfully creepy The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman. I think Neil Gaiman for kids is my favorite Neil Gaiman. This is my book club’s October pick and it’s just perfect for Halloween! It’s also a fast read, and my edition has pictures, so triple fun.

WHAT I’M WRITING

Wow, it’s been almost 3 months since my last WUW post. Things got a little rough starting in July, to the tune of depression. Seemingly endless depression that was getting worse and worse. (If I’m ever quiet for a long time without announcing radio silence beforehand, you can assume depression is the reason.) It’s not that I’m afraid of opening up when I’m depressed, it’s just that everything suddenly seems much bigger than it is, including blogging. I’d log on and stare at my blog and decide it was too much effort. So … yeah. Yay depression!

Anyhow, part of my depression was a dark night of my writerly soul. So, last you heard, I was getting into my revisions on ILLUMINATE THE NIGHT. Then I had the realization that my book was nowhere where I thought it was. I mean, I already knew I wasn’t writing to the level I aspire, but I thought I was closer than I was and the epiphany was a painful one. Very painful. Especially given the fact that I was already depressed. So I had some big chat sessions with two friends and some family members, and decided that it was time to put ItN aside.

Have you ever decided to drawer a manuscript? It’s painful. So very, very painful. And this isn’t even for good. I still whole-heartedly believe in this story and its potential, but I need space. So, I’m putting it aside for several months and have started working on THROUGH CLOUDED EYES again.

And what a fantastic idea that was!! I’ve rediscovered my joy, and avoided the mistakes I was making with ItN, and the difference is noticeable. My writing group has commented multiple times that this first draft of TCE is stronger than any draft of ItN. It seems I’ve learned something after all–which was so good to hear. It’s good to know that I actually was progressing, not backtracking like I originally thought. So, I’m 25% of the way through TCE and I’ve realized some changes that need to be made to the story and one of the relationships (that impact the whole book in a big way). I’m fixing all of that in the First Act, and then I’ll continue onward. I joined the YA Buccaneers Fall Writing Bootcamp with the overall goal of finishing this first draft by the end of November. My goal for October is 30k new words. Yikes! But I also realized, during the dark night of my soul, that writing is the only thing I have control over in my life right now. Well, one of the only things. So I need to act like it.

WHAT WORKS FOR ME

In my last post, I shared how I changed my phone’s lock screen to an image I thought could be the cover for ItN. As soon as I set ItN aside and switched to TCE, I changed the image to one for my new WIP. And then I poked around my phone settings, putting in the title of the book so it almost looks like a book cover. Egads, I love it!

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Oh look, I get terrible reception in my bedroom.

It’s so creepy and dark, and y’all, she’s totally looking through clouded eyes. How did this serendipity even happen? I swear the title came before the image. I love seeing it whenever I unlock my phone. It’s motivating and inspiring.

WHAT ELSE I’M UP TO

Other than slowly coming out of my depression, just being a mama to a busy nearly two-year-old. I’ve also gotten fairly active on Twitter. Come chat with me! I’m back to writing every day, which is great. I did my first cyclocross race a couple of weeks ago and hope to race again next weekend. Cyclocross is basically a hybrid between road and mountain biking and it’s a freaking blast. I got to ride through mud!

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How about you, lovelies? How’s your life?

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7 thoughts on “WUW: I’m back … again!

  1. Discovering the joy in your writing is important! If it’s stressing you out or making you mad, it might be time for a new project. I’ve done the same thing myself.

  2. “Neil Gaiman for kids is my favorite Neil Gaiman” … I am totally with you on that! I loved The Graveyard Book. It may be time for a re-read. I love your phone screen saver idea (and image!). I remember you writing about that before and thinking what a great idea it is to keep you motivated. Of course, I haven’t gotten around to doing this myself!

    Yeah, depression. Hang in there. I’m so glad you are back. Depression sucks. Do you ever read The Bloggess’ blog? My favorite thing that she always says is “depression lies.” It’s so true. Don’t let it lie to you. If it helps at all, I was just re-reading some of your notes the other day on TWoHF and thinking (again) of how freaking brilliant you are. I’m glad you aren’t putting ItN away forever. It’s too good a story to give up on.

    Have a fantastic week!

  3. I looooooved The Graveyard Book! So good!

    I’m glad you’ve pulled yourself out of the depression slump and that you’ve regained your excitement by moving onto Through Clouded Eyes. It’s so so hard to drawer a manuscript. My first beloved story was mangled so much during revision after revision that it is now semi-permanently stashed away even though I really adore it. Maybe one day, after learning better skills, I can salvage it. I hope the same is true for you and your drawered manuscript!

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